Feeling Good

Last night was more than I could have imagined... I first have to thank Brigitte once again for inviting me to third Wednesday at Rock Harbor. I feel like my heart is opening up and letting the Love pour in.

I must start by saying, that I have been very hesitant about opening my heart to God again through a different church. Being a catholic, I feel like I'm doing something wrong by going to another non-catholic church. I've decided to let that not bother me anymore. I need to open my heart and let God in.

Third Wednesday was such a wonderful experience. I love the singing the most, I love to sing and let it all out.... I feel that it's a great outlet and first step to letting God know that I'm here and I'm ready.

I felt moved with what was said last night as well... Matthew 9:36-38 talks about how Jesus had compassion for those who did not know him and how they were like sheep without a shepherd. I feel like I'm a sheep and I can see my shepherd, but I keep him just far enough away that I know that he is there and I can see him, but I haven't let him get to close lately.

I'm ready to discover... I'm ready to learn... I'm ready to let His LOVE in!

As a side note, I'm going to try and be better about posting all my feelings, even the unpopular ones or the ones that I'm having a hard time vocalizing.

That being said, starting to let God in scares me a little because I'm not sure how Tim is going to react. He's a wonderful boyfriend and I know that he will be supportive, but it's always hard for me because I'm not sure how to approach him with religon.